That feeling

I'm shure you know that feeling...
That feeling you're standing at a crossroad and you don't know wich way to go. That hopeless feeling of not knowing what is best.
That feeling of knowing you are the only one who has to make the dessision and live with the consequenses although everyone around you has something to say...
That feeling of not wanting to pick but knowing you have to.
That feeling.
Yes that feeling.
I'm shure you know that feeling.


I find myself having that feeling.
I'm standing at that crossroad.
Not knowing what to do.

The bigg decission I have to make is the same one we all have to make growing up.
What am I going to do with my life?
What will I become?

Generally it goes like this:
You arrive in this world.
Hopefully your parents have time for you and you skip kindergarden and start school at age 4 or 5.
Otherwise you start school before age 1.
From your 4th till you turn 11 you go to primary school.
After that there is highschool untill you turn 18 and then comes university.
When you graduate at age 23 or 24 you start working and if you're lucky you have 1 month vacation every year. Otherwise you you just enjoy some national holidays and your weekends of.
You work untill your 67th birthday and then if your health is still good you can finally start living your life the way you want it.

I know this is a very black and white sketch but lets face it, the system is build for everyone to live their lives in this way. At least in first world countries.
You are always expected to keep on studying and when you stop studying you have to start working. If you decide to live your life in a diffrent way, most people around you will get alarmed and tell you a lot of crap about security and happyness.
"Yes, but what about money? What will you do to earn money? How will you pay for your happiness?"
Well that's the fucking problem in this world! People think that the amount of money you have on your bankaccount equals the amount of happiness in your life. Well that just aint true.

So what is the correct way to live your life?
Well I have to admit, I don't know, nobody knows...
But I think that it is by living by the moment and living with your guts without being afraid of living just the way you want to live your life.

Good Luck with that!